I spoke to Father Wales at last...he says that Sofia Lamb offers me redemption -- I need only show that I am willing to break with Ryan forever. An act of faith from she whose very name is sin. I must have myself erased in the same way I have done to so many. Tonight, at the party, they will raise the curtain, and voila -- I will be gone. I have left enough of a trail for Stanley that he can betray me to Ryan...and soon, I will be with Doctor Lamb. In my dreams, it is like going home.