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| - owlmoon*seven i've made a big mistake now everything's gone out of control it's all scattered in pieces when it should be complete and whole ~ "Owlmoon, there's really no point." Autumnbreeze says quietly. I just watch as she shrinks into her nest under my stare. Then the anger erupts. "You - You scared me." I say in a loud whisper. Autumnbreeze just looks at me, with her round blue eyes. "You were the one who hated me." She said, and I'm taken aback. What did I ever do? "It was you - you ignored me. Left me stranded." I say, slightly perplexed. "Because you - you gave me that look." She says, trailing off. "What did I do, Autumn?" "Nothing." Autumn. What. Did. I . Do?" "You're doing it again." She whispers. "Look, Autumnbreeze. I'm sorry. I'm terribly sorry." "You really want to know?" She asks. I nod my head. "Yes... please." "Owl, remember when we were kits, and we had just met?" I nod my head, closing my eyes. The memories start flooding in, filling my head with a whirl of color. "I could never forget, Autumnbreeze. That was pretty much the start of my life." I whisper. "Remember when we used to play? With Snake and Pipes." The images of my sister flash, and I feel a wave of guilt hit me. "It was wrong, Autumn. I know that. I shouldn't have left you guys. I left my family." "You left, Owlmoon. And then Snake left us, and then Pipes told me to go too. We all cracked inside." "I'm sorry, Autumn. I'm sorry..." "You don't need to be sorry, Owl. It's just the way things are." "But I do. Skymist told me -" Autumnbreeze's looks up and I can see the immediate panic in her gaze. "What did Skymist do?" She whispers. "Nothing- it doesn't matter! But what matter -" I take a deep breath. "What matters is what happened to you, Autumn." "It doesn't matter. Not - not to you." She stands up, and I can see the cold anger in her expression. "I've always cared, Autumn." I breathe softly. "You always mattered to me. You are my best friend." "Then what about the dirty looks, Owlmoon? Every time I catch your eye, it's like you're mad at me for something." "What are you talking about, Autumn?" "I'm talking about the looks I get whenever I try to talk to Skymist. I'm talking about the blazing anger that's in your eyes everytime you set your eyes upon me." "Autumn, that's not even -" "Yes, Owlmoon. It is. There's nothing you can do to change it." "But what did I do?" "Listen. You don't talk to me. You look at me like I'm a worthless nothing. Can you blame me for not talking to you?" She inquires, and I feel something inside me snap. "Autumn. Remember the Wildflower Meadow, and the Dotted Hills? Remember when you and I used to scare Pipes and Snake in the middle of the night?" Autumn nods her head slowly. "Did you tell them - Skymist, Roseblossom, and Swanheart - about them?" At that I smile. "No, Autumn. That's only for me and you. That's our secret. Our bond - no one can break that apart." "But what if -" "Autumn, I dream about Pipes every single night. Every time I try to go and say sorry, she won't have it." "But -" "Don't worry, Autumn. Don't doubt us. We'll stick by you - you're a piece of us that we can't find anywhere else." Autumnbreeze nods her head. Skymist, Roseblossom, and Swanheart suddenly come in. "It's around twilight right now. We were hoping to get an early rest so we can wake up early tomorrow." Skymist says, yawning. The four of us climb into our nests - Autumnbreeze is still in hers - and I close my eyes. "Sweet dreams, guys." ~ everything is now fine our problems have come to an end i'm on the road to happiness my destination is right down the bend ~ ~ after amends have been made things are perfectly fine but i wish i could fix past mistakes then life would be simply divine
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