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| - Well, I had just been eliminated. I'd made it so far, but I obviously wasn't good enough. I thought back to my final words on the show. I closed my eyes. "Why did I tell him that?" I sighed aloud. When Nalyd had told me that he was sorry, I'd forgiven him. But I lied to him, everyone on the show, the world, but worst of all... myself. I felt so guilty for what I had done. Wishing desperately that I could rewind time and take it all back. But what had been done, was done. There was no going back, and I knew I had to live my life knowing that. The reason for the way I acted was this: I had a reputation. I thought that if I took him back, everyone would think that I was weak. It was stupid of me to do that. I didn't want to say those things to him, I did it so I would look like a strong, inde
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| - Well, I had just been eliminated. I'd made it so far, but I obviously wasn't good enough. I thought back to my final words on the show. I closed my eyes. "Why did I tell him that?" I sighed aloud. When Nalyd had told me that he was sorry, I'd forgiven him. But I lied to him, everyone on the show, the world, but worst of all... myself. I felt so guilty for what I had done. Wishing desperately that I could rewind time and take it all back. But what had been done, was done. There was no going back, and I knew I had to live my life knowing that. The reason for the way I acted was this: I had a reputation. I thought that if I took him back, everyone would think that I was weak. It was stupid of me to do that. I didn't want to say those things to him, I did it so I would look like a strong, independent role model. Instead, it just made my heart even more broken. The chance to be happy again was right there in front of me, but I threw it away, just so that the world's view of me would be one of admiration. I just wish that I would've thought about my happiness, and his happiness over what the public thinks of me. It shouldn't have mattered. I should've just done what I felt was right. I was shallow, and pathetic. Though I did turn out to be a role model, I wasn't the kind I expected to be. Instead of being an example for girls to follow, I just showed them what not to do. I looked at my former competitors from a distance. The boat could still be seen. I stood up, and shouted out "I'm sorry! I'm so sorry!" But... I knew that no one could hear me, and if anyone did, they probably didn't care, or believe me. I gazed at the burning fire, slowly it faded to a speck of glowing gold. Soon enough, the only light was that from the boat, and the stars above. I sat down on a crate, and I looked at the tiny twinkling lights. In that moment, I realized something; I'd let the reality show fame get to my head. If I could redeem myself somehow, then maybe my life could be at least... half happy. I yawned. I went through my luggage and pulled out a pillow and a blanket. I made a bed-like thing out of life preservers and took a nap. Before I knew it, I was back on regular land. The ship driver woke me up, and I got off the boat. I took a taxi to the airport, and took a plane home to Malibu. I was ready to make a new name for myself.
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