Sonya, I don't know why I continue to leave you these notes. You and the children have been gone for more than ten years now. Perhaps they make me feel better. Make me believe that what I did wasn't awful. That what I did was necessary. You changed so much. Became a different person. But I'll always remember the woman I loved. The woman who gave me three beautiful daughters. That's the woman I'll always hold in my heart. But when you met that man, the stranger from that cult, you changed. You brought our children into it when I was away. You corrupted them! Love,