Jedi should always be calm and control her feelings. Yeah, right, you wish! I can't sleep even when I know I need rest. Tomorrow two Jedi Masters are coming to visit in search of padawan learners. Master Yoda says I should have good chances to impress them, but I think he tells that to all of us. Of course I know I have almost a year ahead of me before I turn thirteen, and there will be many masters in search of apprentices before that. But I'm still nervous. I feel the Force swirling around me, but I cannot make contact with it, it doesn't grant me serenity. I feel like I'm going crazy and start running up the walls. And I know I should feel tired. First Yoda had us standing on balancing pillars and then told us to go through lightsaber practise.