Harris has made the claim that as a college student he took a leave of absence in order to explore himself. In reality, his "exploration" was a night-long ecstasy trip, where he discovered his illusory nature and lack of a human soul. After discovering his non-existence, Harris thought he could justifiably commit voyeurism in sorority bathrooms. He was soon expelled from Stanford and was only able to get his degree years later by applying under the name "Ben Stiller".