A monster in my head, rising unbidden from the dark recesses of memory. My mind burning with an unstoppable sensation that froze me in place, rooted to the spot like a zergling caught in the searchlights of a siege tank. Oh, god… how did the others cope with this? This unknowable feeling of uncertainty – I could die! I could be torn limb from limb and lie screaming as my blood poured out through horrific wounds! It took all of my effort to remain standing, not to curl up into a sobbing ball. I was being stalked by an emotion I’d never experienced, and there were no defences I could raise in its hellish path through my memories. It was predatory, carnal, filled with deadly promise.