1.) The first time, Ulquiorra truly felt despair, was not when he realized he could feel nothing. To the contrary, it was when he first felt something. That something was an emotion. When his mask shattered in that white void, he could not only see, but hear the decadent silence, taste the ashes of the fallen, smell the decay of death, and feel the blood dripping from his hands. In that instant, his entire world shattered, and he felt a horrible despair. He emerged, fully formed, intelligent, powerful even. That is because he was not a Hollow. He was not a Vasto Lorde. 3.)